Thursday, February 23, 2012

February Showers

The curtains are a bit dreary, but through them I can hear the rain falling within the trees.  Another late night attempting to focus on what matters now less on the big picture.  The two are directly related, yet both seem to lie on opposite poles of my mind.  Didn't John Lennon say that life is what happens when you're busy making other plans? I lose my thoughts in my words, and my words in my thoughts.  The things I crave can only be attained through work and attention to what matters.  It's quite the concept - its simplicity and glaring truth.  I have but now to regain the focus I need, to break through the ceiling, and say that I steered this ship to the best of my ability.  I feel so clever and confused, full of confidence and doubt, ease and worry, all at once.  A crackpot? Nah, just a see-sawing guy who weighs things with multiple scales.  Clarity in what I want, what I need, and what makes me happy will fuel the progress.  Mind over matter, but not what matters.